Dealing with long term mental health disorders is a frustrating process.
Even though I wasn’t diagnosed with depression and anxiety until my mid 20s, it’s obvious to me now that I’ve had these problems as long as I have had memories.
My mom says that I was paranoid whenever people in public made eye contact with me and I constantly asked her if people were staring at me. I was always easily stressed and exhibited signs of avoidant behavior whenever I was frustrated with my father being uninterested in spending time with me. As I got older, these problems only worsened. I managed it in high school by obsessing over my studies and my interests in music. By the time I got to college, I started self-medicating with cannabis and alcohol while seeing a therapist two to three times a month. I learned about my mental health problems and where a lot of the roots were laying. Although I quit using alcohol because of its depressant effects, I kept using cannabis. When medical marijuana was legalized in my state, all of my cannabis was coming with lab test data on the cannabinoids inside. I learned that I responded really well to strains that are high in CBG or cannabigerol. I started studying cannabigerol and learned about its antidepressant and mood stabilizing effects. Although it’s hard to physically extract CBG as an isolate, some companies have developed ways to safely synthesize the beloved cannabinoid. This gives researchers consistency and purity with the product every single time. I’m going to order synthesized CBG as soon as I get my next paycheck, but for now I’ll stick with my strains of cannabis that are already high in natural CBG.