In retrospect, I recognize I have had physiological complications with anxiety for as long as I have had memories.
- Some people recognize that you develop these complications as you grow up in response to the way in which you’re raised, or from whatever trauma you encounter.
But I am truly a living example of someone who has been this way since birth. My earliest childhood memories of interacting with strangers in public were hectic. I typically stuck close to my mom & I used to pull on her shirt & ask her why people were typically staring at me. I’m outdated enough now to realize that I genuinely made eye contact with adults who were simply looking at a cute toddler walking the store with his mom. But in my brain at the time, I only felt fear. I have talked to people in group therapy in the last 10 years & no a single has told myself and others that my behavior back then was normal. Still I haven’t found anyone who could relate to my paranoia at many years old. These mornings I still struggle, so I’m hoping to manage it with cannabis. Medical marijuana was legalized in my state two years ago, however it wasn’t until my mental health got worse that I started to consider getting my own medical marijuana card. It wasn’t an easy process & I had to spend roughly $400 between physician expenses & state fees to get my medical marijuana card. But now that my medical card has been approved by the state, I can finally purchase products at the medical cannabis dispensaries. Hopefully some ratio products with equal amounts of THC to CBD will help with my mental health complications.