In retrospect, I guess I have had physiological complications with anxiety for as long as I have had memories.
Some people guess that you develop these concerns as you grow up in response to the way in which you’re raised, or from whatever trauma you encounter.
But I am definitely a residing example of someone who has been this way since birth. My earliest childhood memories of interacting with strangers in public were hectic. I always stuck close to my mom and I used to pull on her shirt and ask her why people were always staring at me. I’m aged enough now to realize that I genuinely made eye contact with adults who were simply looking at a cute toddler walking the store with his mom. But in my brain at the time, I only felt fear. I have talked to people in group therapy in the last 10 years and no one has told me that my behavior back then was normal. Still I haven’t found anyone who could relate to my paranoia at several years old. These afternoons I still struggle, so I’m hoping to manage it with cannabis. Medical marijuana was legalized in my state 2 years ago, however it wasn’t until my mental health got worse that I started to consider getting my own medical marijuana card. It wasn’t an straight-forward process and I had to spend roughly $400 between physician expenses and state fees to get my medical marijuana card. But now that my medical card has been approved by the state, I can finally purchase products at the medical cannabis dispensaries. Hopefully some ratio products with equal amounts of THC to CBD will help with my mental health complications.